Army Camp vs SIM

Ask mi which i prefer, 4 mths ago perhaps i will choose SIM.Now, i dun think so.

I feel tat im not as happy as i was in 23SA now.Back then, everybody knew me & like it or not, they haf 2 noe mi.I felt important & had a sense of belonging.Got gd working partners & oso a challenging role 2 play.Plus i beat many in fitness & sports despite being seriously injured b4.I was proud of tat of course.

Now in SIM, i feel im juz nothing, not even a qualified student.Skipped upteem lessons; 5 chapters behind IBM, 12 chapters behind maths & stats & dun noe how many chapters behind econs & soci. Haiz, wat kind of student is this? Frankly speaking, its becoz i dun haf tat sense of belonging here in SIM, tat made mi look for activities elsewhere. Call it stupidity or naiveness, tats exactly how im feeling rite now.

I no longer welcome ppl wif a smile, or initiate a conversation or not even haf tat motivation 2 do anything.LIFELESS, tat e word now.

Be it camps or YMCA outings, back 2 lessons in SIM = back 2 boredom & lifeless. Imagine having 2 go 2 a place for 3 yrs juz for e sake of listening 2 lectures & having 2 face e same old few faces almost every lesson.& all they do after lessons is go home or go home.Sianz. Not even anyone can play soccer or pool wif mi.

So pls advise mi, how can i be happier?