Confident? Nope, not confident

Yes, im not confident of X Physique 2 daes later. Im a lousy swimmer, wats more a 200m swim in e river, i realie dun noe if i can make it. Since young, i already has phobia over water coz of some unhappy incident, which has been haunting mi for years. I cant shake tat dream off.

Its realie a mental plus physical challenge for mi, & especially so since i felt i did badly for last yr's marathon, tis yr's surf & sweat & last mth's vertical marathon. I thought i could have done so much more better. Failure is worst tasted if its down to not doing my best.

But its a team's event, & i cant possibly let my team down, esp when Clare is NTU's top 5 rock climber, & Chang being NTU's one of e best canoeist. & Vanessa having trailed mi by 14 sec in vertical marathon & is e fittest gal in NTU tat i noe of. Die die oso muz chiong wif them rite? Haha.

Well, we are aiming for top 3, coz Chang said "we are damn bloody strong". But he 4got, im a burden when it comes 2 water events.