Long Time; Hopes rise & fall

Ages since i last blogged, or even read others'. Ben asked y didnt i do it 4 such a long time, i told him "no mood". Now ive read Benz & Clarez blogs, time 4 them 2 read mine.

These few mths have realie been a great transitional period for mi;
from passing PE test to failing MOE interview,
from yearning to help mould e kids @ Y Yub to detesting them,
from hopes of joining Chang, Clare & Ken in NTU to getting to No-Mans-Land,
from e passion of teaching children in schs, i have now come 2 a decision 2 take up e challenge of managing problems kids & physically & mentally challenged ppl, as my career.

All these metaphormism came 2 mi as a shot in my head. Im an idealistic person, sometimes 2 idealistic, tat once i lose my direction, i will be lost for a long time. Setbacks are part of my life: Sec 2-top 10 in class, from e bottom, then got in2 e class which i initially despised; JC1 retained; JC2 broke my leg, along with my ambition of going OCS; A levels flunk, retook in NS, flunk again; rejected by NUS TWICE, NTU once. Being e clown of X5, who muz laugh @ my every gesture & sentence.

In e past, i alwaz asked myself; "Y muz it be mi, y i so sway, while others are alwaz so lucky & have a easier life?" Now i yearn for 'bad' things 2 happen 2 mi, or some extraordinary encounters which my friends wont go thru, so tat i can collect a bagful of experiences, 2 share with ppl i will be helping in e future.

Setbacks are no longer failures 2 mi, but as another experience which i can benefit e others whom i will share with.