Bloody Hell

Quite pissed off 2dae, by 2 incidents

Maths 2dae waz quite a torture. I know im not from 2daez class, i know by rite i should stand up & scram out of e lecture in order 2 give up my seat 2 e 'genuine' student for e lecture. But i got my reasons for having 2 attend 2daez lecture illegally mah. Im doing volunteer work on Sats, so how can i attend Satz Maths lecture? I oso feel guilty 1 mah. Haiz, think i like attending illegal lectures for fun meh?

Wat contrained optimization partial differentiation. Full of crap! No wonder Maths geniuses feel so proud & self-fulfilling. Wat the hell, im a CM genius leh, oso proud.


Then bought e Newpaper & saw a pissful article. A bloody f42ker who claimed his bro is poor & tat he cant do much to help his needy bro, asked for a free fridge from e gals who voluntarily collect & give away appliances to NEEDY ppl. In e end, tat mother f&*ker is a owner of a MERC. Wat e fuke. Hope he crash his merc & be bankrupt by Xmas. Freeloaders, wife-beaters, maid-abusers, animal-haters, fuke u all! Dun let me see u in action, or i give u a HACKS!

A Different Perspective

If anyone who has been consistent in peeping in2 my blog(privacy), im sure u will realise tat ive been mentioning a great deal about NTU, soccer & of course, Clare & Chang( pai seh Jere & Ben, u r not 4gotten of course).Tis time, its about them again, im sorie 2 admit. Perhaps its becoz my life evolves around them recently.

This time, i discover another side of Chang again. Hes e type who will call u mad if u asked him 2 join Sports Day, not even 2 mention jogging. But tis time, he invited me 2 jog wif him, @ 1.30AM, around NTU. Huh? Real or not? I punched myself, it hurts, its not a dream.

So we jogged & he showed me around NTU. We both discovered, e facilities or environment of e campus in the day is basically no different from the nite, but the beauty displayed by the sombre-darkness-lit-by-lamps ambience made us appreciate the campus from a different perspective. The same goes for Life. Volunteering & helping others have always been my dream long ago. The mentality then waz the thought tat im 'superior' to them so i ought to help them, the less privilege. More waz my pity for them.

Basically, tis dream of mine has not changed these many years. What tat has changed was my perspective 2wards volunteering myself. Ive come 2 realise that they dun need our pity; what they needed is a chance for them 2 prove themselves to others tat they R human too, & tat little respect every person deserves. Sounds cheem huh, but tats Ngiap.

I want 2 make more than a little difference 2 these less privileged only, i want to help volunteers too who have tat kindness to put tat foot in front, to be like me, to see tat different perspective in helping others.

No one in this world is born to be superior to others.

Shioka!

Hmm, didnt expect last nitez ChinaBlack adventure 2 be so enjoyable. Used 2 hate clubbing or pubbing coz thought that i could do nothing there. Thats y Chang is alwaz dumbfounded when i asked him, " what can we do there?"
Though Chang was 2 busy 2 intro his friends 2 mi, but i dun blame him lah, he got REASONS. Saw e other side of Clare & Chang though haha. Sorie Ben, rejected ur invitation once, but maybe when u come back we go k? Chang is always in e good mood 2 pay our bills 1.
Wah 2dae was a shiok day. Played soccer again @ NTU, but this time as a keeper. Ben i can match u liao. I let in only 1 goal hor, saved @ least 8 shots on goal. won e game 12-1. Haha, fulfilling man.
2moro doing volunteer work again, realie enjoyin wat im doing now. Slowly, im fulfilling my childhood dream; to help people with my abled body.

Shioka Neh.

Reflections

2dae, im finally in e Pool Club liao. So glad 2 be able 2 have e chance 2 learn from good players & also able 2 enjoy this game regularly le. Competition is on 26th Sept, wanna prepare myself 4 it, coz i luv 2 compete haha. 2moro will be seeing chang & clare again, gonna have another good soccer game with them once again @ NTU.Im back 2 healthy lifestyle again.But, long time neva throw temper on soccer court liao, should rekindle this great feeling again huh.

Juz finished another Jap drama, gave me some moments of deep thinking. Gotta get more from West Mall 2moro.Suddenly have this strong luv 4 Jap shows.

Saw Jere's blog, could really see that joy & hilariously great feeling which we have not seen in him b4. Bet tis gal who had entered his life a really great gal, & i think they both deserve each other.Am really very very happy 4 them man. My buddy has found life!

Haiz, Exclusiv 5, 1 man down now, wonder how many of us will still be left standing b4 Ben join us back. Chang & Clare, Gambate Neh! Ben, we dun mind u getting an Ang Moh gf, i will take gd care of her 4 u 2, haha.

Treasure What U Have

Ive finally come to face it, the older I grow, the more I keep things 2 myself. There were many occasions when i will deliberately deny things, & in fact, my heart feels otherwise. There were always times when I was lost in my long journey & longed 4 someone 2 join me, but, somehow i neva let it happen. I really wish 2 spill out all my real feelings & thoughts 2 anyone, but it doesnt really means that u want 2 do, u can do. Perhaps by the time ive decided that its time 2 confide, no one will bother or no one will be around 2 listen.

My friends, there will always be times when we will deceive others & ourselves when we kept the truth deep in e unreachable part of our hearts. But, treasure what u have now lest when the day u found u ve lost some things that can neva be retrieved again, u will feel 2 sad 2 regret.

Time Waits 4 no One

Congrats Jere, U ve finally found ur One, all of us are happy 4 u, pls treasure what u haf now, & tis is a warning ah, dun u ever 'Heavy Colour Light Friends'.

Ben, read ur blog 2, felt tat u ve grown a lot, becoming even more appreciative of what u haf now. I was like u, reacting strongly & defensively wheneva Mom called mi on my ph 2 check mi out. But it neva occured 2 mi that despite her busy & hectic life, my well-being is still her concern. How foolish. Now im going 2 treasure her every calls.

I was not myself 2dae, dun noe Y. Juz kept relishing on my past, thinking how good life was 4 years ago. Perhaps, what others said are true.Growing up is tough. Now i realised, the tougher part of growth is to learning to forget about how u lived before, & to live a life differently now, whether u like it or not. I cant get over it, i cant put down the past that ive been thru & get going wif my life now. I hate this feeling, but time waits 4 no one.