Bachelor of Social Work

My friend in NCSS recommended me this course, so went for its course preview last nite.

I was rather confused during e talk, coz e speaker is an Aussie, speaking in a slang so foreign to mi. Im not sure if e others caught wat she said oso. I thought i need only take 4 bridging modules & 2 yrs for full time, 4 yrs as part time 2 attain tis degree.

After finalie gotten e chance 2 speak 2 e Singaporean staff, i was devastated 2 find out tat i will need 4 yrs 2 attain e cert, full time. Tat means, 4 lessons a week, for 4 yrs, while holding a full time job. Tat is provided i can cope, becoz as a part timer, i will take 8 yrs.........

Initially i thought of turning full time @ YMCA, but now, doubts etched in my mind. Will they be so supportive to allow mi 2 attend lessons for 4 yrs? How long then do i have 2 be bonded? Can i hold on through e period? Actuallie im juz a human, my reaction is of course normal: complain & whine. But i didnt say i dun want 2 take up tis course. Btw, i will need $45 000.

Howeva, she was e last i expected 2 criticise mi on my reaction. I was devastated, again, 2 think she used her friend, not herself, 2 compare with my situation. Mind her, her friend is taking 3 yrs Diploma part time, im taking 4 yrs double degree full time, while working. She made it sound so simple & stuff, i was totally saddened by her remarks. She dun understand how i felt tat time afterall, of all people. Taking 2 degree courses while working is neva a simple thing, she thought i dun need 2 do my volunteer work or have a social life? Juz work & study?

I realie dun noe how i shd react. Complain, which is normal, ppl criticise mi for being weak & will make comparisons, which cannot even be compared with. Remain calm as if im ready 2 take on any challenge, ppl think you didnt plan enough or are acting rashly.

Allow mi 2 think for e time being. I realie need peace.

Long Time; Hopes rise & fall

Ages since i last blogged, or even read others'. Ben asked y didnt i do it 4 such a long time, i told him "no mood". Now ive read Benz & Clarez blogs, time 4 them 2 read mine.

These few mths have realie been a great transitional period for mi;
from passing PE test to failing MOE interview,
from yearning to help mould e kids @ Y Yub to detesting them,
from hopes of joining Chang, Clare & Ken in NTU to getting to No-Mans-Land,
from e passion of teaching children in schs, i have now come 2 a decision 2 take up e challenge of managing problems kids & physically & mentally challenged ppl, as my career.

All these metaphormism came 2 mi as a shot in my head. Im an idealistic person, sometimes 2 idealistic, tat once i lose my direction, i will be lost for a long time. Setbacks are part of my life: Sec 2-top 10 in class, from e bottom, then got in2 e class which i initially despised; JC1 retained; JC2 broke my leg, along with my ambition of going OCS; A levels flunk, retook in NS, flunk again; rejected by NUS TWICE, NTU once. Being e clown of X5, who muz laugh @ my every gesture & sentence.

In e past, i alwaz asked myself; "Y muz it be mi, y i so sway, while others are alwaz so lucky & have a easier life?" Now i yearn for 'bad' things 2 happen 2 mi, or some extraordinary encounters which my friends wont go thru, so tat i can collect a bagful of experiences, 2 share with ppl i will be helping in e future.

Setbacks are no longer failures 2 mi, but as another experience which i can benefit e others whom i will share with.