Absolutely Stunned

Thought since Channel 5 was showing, so i stayed up 2 watch e Champions League final. Milan started wif a bang man, fancy a 35 yr old defender general scoring a final's precious goal. Then 39 mins gone, i thought e game was sealed, with Milan up 3-0. Even Arsenal or Man U or even Chelsea cant scored another 4 goals.I firmly believed.

I went 2 sleep, thinking e match was over.

Morning got 2 office, logged on 2 Soccernet, was prepared 2 see news abt Milan lifting their seventh trophy, with Crespo being e Man-of-the-match.

Stunned i was, Liverpool won. How e hell can they actualie equalised in 6 mins & held on for another 60 mins b4 winning in penalties? wah lao, unbelievable man.

The ball is realie realie round, now i truly believe.

Lost Path

Ronnie spoke 2 mi for 3 hrs yesterdae, after i had knocked off.He knew i was troubled, badly.I spilled my heart out & confided in him e problems & dilemmas im experiencing.

This Y Hub experience didnt exactly allowed mi 2 gain experience & confidence 2 teach in e future, but demoralises mi.Im realie vexed @ how i had 2 treat e kids here, with indifference & much harshness, so that i can draw tat fine line between a staff here & juz being another-ordinary-uncle-not-worth-respecting 2 e kids. For their sake in e future, i was forced 2 treat them rather nastily. Cold blooded & indifferent i would describe myself.

I felt im doing many things against my own principles, which i used 2 hold on 2 firmly. Neva in my life i had 2 scream @ e top of my voice so much in a day, tat i lost my voice a few times. I felt guilty each time i lectured any kid, but i realie want them 2 behave & learn, & not wishing them 2 fall into e dark side of society, & become e scums of the future.But is scolding them realie enuff? I realie thought of giving up.

Ronnie shared with me a lot of experiences he had as a volunteer in YMCA.I realie saw e other side of him, admirable. He did show mi e light admist e dark clouds, encouraged mi 2 carry my dream of helping others.

Im realie afraid i may not maintain tat passion as long as i planned, but i will not give up tat easily w/o a fight though.

Give mi tat strength, so tat i can carry on.
Give mi tat money, so i can provide it free 2 e kids.
Give mi some volunteers, so i dun have 2 run around like a headless chicken.
Give mi tat knowledge, so tat i can impart them 2 e kids here.
Give mi some hope, so tat i can believe in miracles.

Yeah!

E grp leader recognised mi once i approached e hall where all others were seated. I deliberately wore e same shirt as my 1st test, coz i failed in tat shirt,so i shall pass in tat shirt. He asked:" Failed e 1st test? Which station?" I had been training after work every Mon & Thurs for 3 weeks, so i was confident i can make e mark tis time, no qualms abt it."Ive improved in my swimming liao." I smiled.

As usual, badminton wasnt a challenge, ball possesion was rather challenging as there were more gals & ppl on e same territory. I caused a gal 2 fall as i was rather aggressive, held myself back a little after tat incident. Gymnastics, heh heh, i did better than e last test.

Agility run was rather interesting.I was quite disappointed with my last run result, i got only 2 points. So i told myself, no matter wat, i muz get a 3 points tis time.If i cant even make e running mark, then wat qualifications do i have 2 be a PE teacher? As usual, i was e last candidate.Tis time i was more familiar with e running route, so i knew when 2 accelerate & when 2 deccelerate.After e run in, i felt i was like e runner who finished 1st in a race.One by one, e others came 2 mi & asked:" R u a sprinter?How come ur one step is our 2 steps?" " Wah ur leg very strong woh."

I dun noe whether i ran as fast as they described mi as, but no matter wat e timing, im glad liao, coz i did my best afterall. Swimming was e last station & i realie owed it 2 Yeqiang & Clarence.Yeqiang taught mi e basic strokes & breathing techniques, & it was Clarence who advised mi 2 swim e conventional way instead of my usual 2 strokes 1 breathe unordothox method.

I passed! Yeah.Now waiting for NTU 2 reply mi by end May. Im gonna be wat i want 2 be. Shioka neh.

Wat a Long Wait, Finallie.....

Thought after starting work @ Y Hub, my daily past-time @ Y Hub is to juz make sure no couple come in 2 hanky panky; no 10 yr old boy to argue over whether he can play pool; or expecting the Malay group of children to treat tis place with a little more respect. 6 rather challenging but exhausting weeks, so far nothing @ e centre had excited mi.

But, Meijun finallie spoke 2 mi tis morning, on MSN! Wah, it was 4 mths ago since i last spoke 2 her, perhaps shes juz so so busy wif her work over @ US. Was so happy 2 learn tat she did well away from home. Proud & happy for her.

E news of her coming home on 23rd May is e upheaval of my day man! Despite coming back several times liao, tis is e 1st time she informed mi abt her return, sure delighted i was! Haha, she made my monotonous day @ Y Hub great man.

Now looking forward 2 her return, got so so much things 2 tell her, hope she has e mood & time 2 share wif mi.

Juz so great 2 hear from her. Now, gambate neh.