Helpless

I realised tat as we aged, we tend to share less about our lives' happenings with our families & friends. Ive managed to share so far with only a few people who dropped in @ my Y Hub. I thought tat by sharing with them, it would provide mi with alternatives or show mi solutions to solve the problems. It seems not as simple as i deem it.

Working @ Y Hub is getting more fun & meaningful, especially when 4 volunteers came forth 2 volunteer their services to Y Hub these few weeks. It realie empowered & strengthened mi, becoz an additional help is so significant, so much so tat even if she/he were juz 2 stay in e office for 1 or 2 hrs, i could bring e kids for soccer, or play enriching games. But my greatest joy so far is to see those small but magnificient changes in the attitudes & behaviour of e kids. From kids who took things for granted & being inconsiderate & disregarding authorities; they are now considerate & cooperative teenagers-to-be. Its realie great joy seeing them grow each day. However i will leave @ e end of e year, coz im starting my Counselling course next Jan.

2 kids here whom i realie worry e most upon my decision to leave Y Hub are worrying mi even more so, recently. After speaking to her counsellor yesterdae, it seems tat Cassandra's problems stemmed from her childhood, when she was being casted around like an unwanted child. Initially i thought she was juz being rebellious & mischievious. Not so after knowing her for a few months. Shes realie e easy prey to bastard guys, whose motive is to get flesh with her. Btw, shes only 10, but physically, she looks like 14. Young head on a matured body is surely a dangerous thing. I know deep down inside her heart are feelings of rejection, hatred, bitterness, which are e bondages of her live that are so pricky for us to resolve. I know im no counsellor, im no social worker. Does it make a difference, as long as i truly have e heart & determination to help her? Qualification is juz e paper to prove tat a person had spent 3 yrs & $25000 investing in a course. It requires 2 attributes for a person to be a counsellor: the passion & knowledge. Rite now, i lack e knowledge, but there are so so many people who lack e passion, which is something a person cant learn through a course.

Jeremy ran away from home again yesterdae. I wonder wats on his mind. Hes a Christian for 3 yrs, have a super caring family, have a supportive & loving church group, have people like Mark & mi who care for him. Then wat he realie lacks? His gang is not letting him off, friends are shunning him, teachers giving up on him, & now, his parents despondent with his attitudes. I wonder wat i can do to help him. Will scolding help? Will chatting with him help? Will getting the police to interfere help? I wonder. I feel more helpless when Cassandra's & Jeremy's counsellors told mi that:" They are beyond us." How else can we help then?

Enlighten mi Father.